Full Circle

A visceral lament 

Eeks its way 

Upon the stage

Reserved for private pantomime 

How can this be?

It's not possible!

I'm so done with this...

Fuck.. I'm here - again!

This is a mistake..

I must be mistaken..

I made a mistake..

I am a mistake!

Well that's it then

Bedrock!

Rock Bottom!

Now that's a solid foundation!

I suppose 

I could dig deeper still

I think not

Which means up, out, & through

Courage to change 

How did I get here?

Are there frequent flyer points assigned?

I'm here again .. what's in it, for me?

But again!! ...

How can it be so....

Wait.. stop right there!!

No gain .. through self-inflicted pain

I could try some understanding

That would be novel

Doesn't this already hurt enough?

What would love do?

I'm down

I've been down before

To be down "again"

Means previously, I got back up 

I've never yet

Loved too much

So I'll love the love that picked me up

So that I could love again