Messy, Complicated and Afraid

Dear TED Talks

Contained within

My Audition

Right .. 

(30 sec elevator presentation)

How's this then?

I am:

Messy, Complicated & Afraid!!!

Well yes there's more

But these would be

The Powerpoint slides

The pillars of the presentation

If I knew how 

To work that shit

"Now" and "Agreements"

Uh huh..

That's where it's at, is it?

Marketability?

Okay how's this:

"The Three Truths"

Truth won't fill the seats?

Seriously?

Well you're the experts....

Have you heard... it will set you free?

People won't pay 

To hear me speak the truth??

Are you sure?

They want to get over

Being someone like me.....

Ridding themselves of : 

"Messy, Complicated and Afraid"

And the success gurus 

They would tell them, how that's done...

What would they do with 

Those parts of themselves?

Where would they then 

Put that stuff??

Over come it?

Positive thinking?

Think.. therefore I am...

I don't know...

What do mean, I'm being negative already?

I was just going to say 

I think that 

Though I'm here 

Making this pitch

I am still

"Messy, complicated and Afraid"

Well thank you 

Kind of you to say 

I hide it well...

Afraid of what?

That I won't successfully 

Get through this audition?

No, that doesn't matter

If I get it or not

I am still 

"Messy, complicated and afraid"

Oh I would need to 

No longer be 

These things to 

Get on....

The other "Leaders.."

They are not

"Messy, complicated and afraid?"

No. 

You don't say...

How do you know?

Oh... I see, they don't talk about it

So, as long as you don't talk about it

You are not:

"Messy, complicated and afraid.."

You folks wear a lot of makeup

"On the air"

Isn't what you're saying,

A lot like, 

Covering that big zit 

With powder 

And saying it's not there?

Not the same at all 

Right I got ya..

The audition is over...

Disappointed?

Not at all..

I've learned so much today...

It's been a brilliant success!

Well yes I'm not 

Going to be 

On the show

But 

In truth 

I'm not here

To put on a show

My approach

Is 

I'm going to do 

What's in front of me to do

Being just who I am 

I didn't say

Being

"Messy, complicated and afraid"

Stopped me

My message 

Would center around

People doing 

What they want

As who they are

Being 

"Messy, complicated and afraid"

Is nothing to be ashamed of

It takes enormous courage

To show up 

With what you've got

What's that 

You might have 

A spot opening up 

After all...

Well isn't that something ...

But no thank you

I don't think you'd be 

A good fit 

For what it is 

I'm up to....

Ya.. I know..

I'm a little 

"Messy, complicated and afraid"

That way!!

R. O'Neill (August  13, 2017)